Friendster is revamping their site... So personal files will be thrown down the trash bin...Along with 5 years of my life's imprints... I thought at first it wouldn't matter, but when I revisited the site today, I actually felt sad... You know how it is when you suddenly see an old photo album and flip through its pages as though you're flipping through a fashion magazine but as you go through the pages you feel more and more nostalgic?... haist!
These were my Friendster shout outs since last year... I feel like I'm looking back into my life and reliving the journey, this time in fast forward...
May 8, 2010, I wrote: "They say lightning never strikes the same place twice... sad to say, for some people, it does..." (not referring to myself, FYI :)
May 10, 2010 I wrote: "I ask myself why and I don't know the answer...." (well, it's been a year since this post and I still don't know the answer...)
May 12, 2010: "Enough na... somebody has to end it. Let me do the brave thing and be the one to walk away..." (I thought I was ending a relationship... but when you walk away and someone follows, kasalanan ko pa ba yon? hehe!)
May 16, 2010: "how do you explain someone having no reason to stay but does, even when they have more pressing reasons to be somewhere else?..."
May 19, 2010: "If you walk under the shadow of a tree and you don't like it there, do you ask the tree to move?..."
May 20, 2010: "One day, our kids will look back at the things we're doing now and ask us why... "
May 21, 2010: "I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle... but everyday I pick myself up and just pray for good things to happen... that one day a little girl will understand, without hatred, why things have to be the way they are..."
May 23, 2010: "We must all do what we must. But in end, we have to be true to ourselves... What's left in the heart when the soul is at peace...that is the answer." (up until now, I still believe this holds true)
May 25, 2010: "Taking responsibility should be done willingly... not imposed... nor driven by guilt... otherwise, it is no different from a punishment sentenced..."
May 29, 2010: "Angels keep finding their ways back to heaven too soon these days.... " (wow... this one is something I will take to the grave with me...)
May 29, 2010: "I just know I believe in Love... Not always in the people through which it is manifested, for we are all only human, but in Love itself, and how Love, by itself, is always reason enough... "
June 3, 2010: "Love is patient... love is kind... it has no rules... only people have rules...
June 4, 2010: "your presence soothes..." ( I think this was a text message...)
June 4, 2010: "today I sat on my window and just watched the world go by...something about taking a bird's eye view of things made me stop and take a long overdue deep,deep breath... "
June 9, 2010: "please say you'll stay...I need you more than ever...sometimes it's the prince that needs to be rescued..."
June 10, 2010: "sometimes the deafening silence is so much better than for it to be broken only by the things we want to hear, but are actually nothing but white lies."
June 16, 2010: "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin... bob ong ba to?.... hmmmm...." (reposted from somewhere in facebook. hehe!)
June 29, 2010: "wish i have all the answers but i don't... " ( I may not have all the answers... but at least I have faith. :)
The next two are my favorites:
July 6, 2010: (Tope picked me up from Capiz Doctor's Hospital just after my duty. He held my hand and waved for a tricycle then out of the blue...) "I think I'm going to start," he said. "Start what?" I answered. "Rebuilding...." And the whole world felt like poetry..."
Then a month later, we flew to Manila to make our dreams a work in progress...
August 16, 2010: "Life goes on..."
... and you know what, it really does. :)
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